Sunday, November 24, 2013

My thoughts

Elena wasn't only single, but she hardly interacted with anyone.  She was a loner and was happy to be in her own company most of the times, and as she hit her twenty-third year, the isolation began to catch up to her.  She didn't know it, but she was longing for a friend, or for a man to just call her pretty.  She was a bit on the plain side, not ugly, not gorgeous, but attractive ....

Deep down inside Elena knew a relationship with him couldn't possibly last due to her self involvement and so she never bothered trying to pursue one with him.  Elena figured that the only way to forget him was to ignore him as much as possible and so she never picked up the phone.  Elena hoped she would find the courage to actually tell him to bug off someday, but she couldn't do it because she was actually lying to herself.  Subconsciously, Elena didn't want him to bug off and she kind of looked at him as something she wanted but couldn't possibly have.  The truth was that she was afraid, and had no experience standing up for what she wanted ....

She hated her weakness, and didn't like the hole she crawled into whenever a man came into her life.  She was too negative about the repercussions of a relationship ....

Elena wondered what a fool this guy must have been to be interested in such an anti-social stiff such as her ....

Her dad taught her to stay away from men, and that they were no good anymore.  He drilled the same information into her skull over and over as a kid - that men were no good, society was crumbling and she should stay single for her own sake.  Her father's strict upbringing had bounded Elena's heat in chains ....

Interesting.   Some books just make you think - even when they weren't actually supposed to.

3 comments:

Andrew Leon said...

Wait, is that from a book or did you write it?

Meghan H said...

I wish I wrote that haha. It just sounds ... um ... very true to life. It's from a book I'm reading by Anton Troia.

Diego Martin said...

i thought it was a clip from Your book!! still like it tho.